Friday, July 4, 2008


Wonder if anyone ever gets used to how their body feels after a C-spine injury? Sat in the booth yesterday for dinner with Haley. It was good to be out of the wheelchair, but I felt like I was sitting on a cushion of water or balancing on a boogie board in the pool during the entire meal. I explained to Haley how it feels, that I am never completely comfortable unless I am lying in or sitting on my bed or in the pool. I wonder if a comfort level with how one's body feels ever happens. If I use my stander-glider too much or walk with my walker too much, I pay with muscles that are so tight that I cannot relax them at will. These activities do help with spasticity, but, then I have to have some deep tissue body work done to allow my muscles to relax. Catch-22 dilema, but necessary for progress. My body still has lots to learn or I still have lots to still adjust to. Hmmm...maybe this is a prime example of something I have to let go and just experience "what is" because, as Jon Kabat-Zinn would say in his mindfulness meditations, "it is already here".

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